This year has proved significant to me in more ways than one. Besides hitting that milestone 30, I’ve been more focused than ever on personal development and really trying to be brutally honest with myself on what happiness truly means to me.

For the last 5 years, I’ve dedicated time to, well…finding happiness (so to speak), though those who really know, know it doesn’t just happen overnight. I threw myself into my relationship because at the time that’s what made me happy. And then motherhood because well, that brought a different level of love and fulfillment. I was content, but as we all come to realize that easily became a blessing and a setback.

While throwing myself into my family and my home, I neglected me and my life outside of that. Starting with friendships. Some might know that I’ve been an expat for 5 years now, so not having my already established circle of friends around played a big role in that. And living in a country where the language is not your native makes creating new ones a bit of a challenge. My mindset at the time may or may not have had something to do with that too, but that’s a conversation for another post.

This time around though, I told myself I’d make it a point to cultivate a tribe of creatives and like minds. To put myself out there with people, with looks, with ideas and concepts. I mean, I know we’re in the last quarter of the year but sis is finally ready. Me. I am sis.

This blog is LIVE! Finally! You don’t even know the half of it! From struggling to coordinate schedules, to trying to find a balance with family life, to falling into a creative rut and struggling to pull myself out of that…I mean, you get the gist. It just seemed like everything and anything was working against me and I was ready to scrap the whole idea of it. But you know what they say…if you can’t stop thinking about it, it’s probably worth going after. So here I am, going after it and if this isn’t my calling, I’m 110% sure this platform will open the doors to what is.

With all that being said, I wouldn’t be me if I didn’t name this chapter, so without thinking too long on it I’m going call this chapter: Just Jump Already. I’m sure a lot of us can relate to that, I’m sure we’ve all come to that crossroad at some point, but out of curiosity, what would you name this chapter of life that you’re currently in?

Anyways, I really wanted to kick start this blog on a personal level, for context and for the opportunity to be vulnerable. As much as this is a fashion blog, I also really want this to be a space where we can get personal and be open. So I dedicate this post to everyone who’s in need of a little push to go for whatever it is in your heart to go after, to stop downplaying yourself and give yourself a little more credit. And as a gentle remind that you matter, your happiness matters- don’t you ever forget that part. So let’s toast to new beginnings and dream chasing.

-Kondja

Two-piece set: Butik

Navy dress: H&M

Nude pumps: Aldo

Scarf: Mango

Bag: Zara

Rings: Parfois + Vintage